it takes a village.

My mother and godmother have always said it takes a village to raise a child. Tomorrow morning, I’m embarking on a new adventure to meet my birth family on my mother's side. I want to thank all my family and amazing friends who have been there to support me through this journey, at every stage for all these years. It has been a very long time coming! I have the best family in the world and I know I am incredibly lucky. Our family is growing, and we welcome my new clan with arms wide open!

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vision boards.

I first learned about vision boards I think from Nadia, an employee at the cafe that I ran in Austin, TX, who was completely beautiful inside and out, and had a dry spell of no dating for quite some time. She made a vision board and I remember that when I went back to see her after I had left the cafe, she had found a love and was so happy... and she felt that the vision board helped manifest that in her life.

When I was going through a very challenging time in 2008 (major life challenges were converging at once: my Mom diagnosed with breast cancer, new job, break up with boyfriend, personal health challenges...) I went to a counselor because I was having "trouble with balance!", who encouraged me to do a vision board. I like to do things right when I do them Happy, so I made this kick ass board... and she was very impressed. Since then, it has hung in a couple different places in my home and not too long ago I moved it into my bedroom so I would see it more frequently than in the hall- it makes me happy.

It was time to make a new vision board for 2015, and as I got it started at our first girl's craft night a couple weeks ago, I wondered about this one and if any of it had even come true before I embarked on the next vision. My friend immediately said YES, things have definitely come true! I know I am not a good judge... that is why I have friends thankfully! It is like having a child and being around that child all the time, and not seeing the dramatic growth and change that takes place as well as someone who sees them only a couple times a year. I've gotten a bit desensitized to this thing and couldn't look at it clearly. It's exciting to look at it now and see that my health has drastically improved, my relationships are strong, my work is fulfilling and inspiring, there is joy in my life... it worked right before my eyes and I didn't even realize it!

I hope to finish the new vision board in the coming weeks, and as I look back fondly on this one again, really look at it (something I am working to be better at doing, absorbing the good), I see that Terri is right, and things really have come true. Happy

This exercise is a powerful tool for me, and I'm looking forward to manifesting even more on both in the New Year!


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the yesterdays.

Today I tell a true story, to a live audience, with no notes, for 12 minutes, around the theme of On The Edge, via the nonprofit storytelling organization The Monti. I have to tell you it has been a surprisingly cathartic experience! I had a good friend help me cut things out of my story, because it's way too hard to do yourself when it's your LIFE! She helped me realize I already knew the story, very well, and just needed to tell it the way I would tell it to anyone in conversation. The actual story and narrative do the work, not the words- pretty cool! It's a shift of mediums for me, as I'm more used to writing, and it's been a good challenge to step out of my comfort zone.

The gist and moral of the story, is that through a process of shedding yesterdays, I am slowly but surely more able to live in today. It is the story of overcoming 25 years of chronic illness that I write about here, and this site has helped prepare me to tell it.

The image below is a slate wallhanging that was in our house growing up in Upstate NY, and I've always loved it. It's now in my living room, and I just noticed it when practicing my story. It reminds me of home, because we had a big beautiful white birch tree in the front yard, and the cool, heavy shale is from that region. It's perfect ... read aloud, meditate on, and enjoy!


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A blurry shot of my sister Katie, cousin Julie, and I horsing around in the birch tree Happy
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don't give up!

I'm behind on posting- have several in the works and promise to post soon. In the meantime, just a little reminder Happy

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